Jesus Died For Me So I Want To Live For Him

Jesus Died For Me So I Want To Live For Him


Boxes, Storage Unit, U-Haul....The Mission. All this brings me back to the day of my baptism. 

The day of my baptism I was asked "Why are you being baptised today?" My answer still holds true..If Jesus died for me then I want to live for him. I spent a good part of Friday arguing with God; laughable, I know. I begged Him "please take this from me," "Lord, please don't make me go through with this." However; His answer stands. Tuesday I am taking my family to the Mission to stay until I find us a house. I'm terrified. I don't know what this will lead to but I hold onto the promise...Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." Deuteronomy 31:6 NIV I so wish the right house would just fall into my lap and with Jesus all things are possible, but I feel like there is more that needs to be done before the right house comes along. I made a mess and now it's time for it to be cleaned up. Things in my life could have been handled very differently and I could have made better choices but those choices were made and here I am. I have a fear of what people will think of me.."Is she using again?" "Did she mess up?" "Am I failing my kids?" I fear what man will think and the truth is that the only persons opinion of my life that truly matter is Jesus and its my job to remember that and walk with Him through all of this. Jesus prayed so hard that He shed tears of blood asking to have what was to come taken from Him and the answer held and He walked in obedience and suffered, died, went to hell, and was raised from death for me. I say me because I have learned that He died and rose for us all but would have still gone through with it if it were still only for me because that's how much He loves me and you. Yes, I'm scared..however I have faith. I don't like sharing things like this about myself but in the past few months I have learned there are so many going through struggles that they don't want the world to see out of fear. Paul openly talked about his struggles and today I stand comforted knowing I am not alone so I'm writing this to the ones that are going thought it; your not alone either and we can be assured that Jesus will never leave us and Jesus will never forsake us.

Are they servants of Christ? I know I sound like a madman, but I have served him far more! I have worked harder, been put in prison more often, been whipped times without number, and faced death again and again. 24Five different times the Jewish leaders gave me thirty-nine lashes.Three times I was beaten with rods. Once I was stoned. Three times I was shipwrecked. Once I spent a whole night and a day adrift at sea.I have traveled on many long journeys. I have faced danger from rivers and from robbers. I have faced danger from my own people, the Jews, as well as from the Gentiles. I have faced danger in the cities, in the deserts, and on the seas. And I have faced danger from men who claim to be believers but are not.I have worked hard and long, enduring many sleepless nights. I have been hungry and thirsty and have often gone without food. I have shivered in the cold, without enough clothing to keep me warm. 2 Corinthians 11:23-27

Then Jesus went with his disciples to a place called Gethsemane,and he said to them, “Sit here while I go over there and pray.”He took Peter and the two sons of Zebedee along with him, and he began to be sorrowful and troubled.Then he said to them, “My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.”

Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”

Then he returned to his disciples and found them sleeping. “Couldn’t you men keep watch with me for one hour?” he asked Peter.“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak.”

He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.” Matthew 26:36-46